Non-Op is OK, Too!
Hello, I’m Mariah Andrews, from Laughlin, Nevada. After being on HRT for only 18 months, I am considering discontinuing HRT and going completely non-op. My doctor thinks my excessive weight gain within a two month period is related to my hormone intake. I got a job in a local casino as a maid and I do a lot of walking and lifting and developed more strength in muscle. My arms and legs are firm and hard, so hard that you can shatter glass on my arm and not cut me. I wonder if HRT is actually doing the opposite of what I expected it to do for me?
Then again, I was never male-looking in my life. I am 27 years of age, but my friends all say I look 35-40. Throughout my life, I never had high levels of testosterone to begin with. My T-levels, prior to HRT were very low, below 300! My estro-level for a male was slightly higher than normal too. This is the truth. I never had an adam’s apple, I never had much body hair! I showed no signs of baldness. I was always mistaken for a girl when I was a guy because I always wore my hair long.
These factors also lead me to stopping HRT because of the fact that I’m finding out that it wasn’t necessary. I am starting to feel that I’m not needing to prove anyone anything. I now feel that peer pressure led me to starting HRT because all my T-friends were on hormones and I was the only one who wasn’t. Yet, I was the most passable one always. Other T-girls envied me, even those who took hormones for years, yet I never took hormones until last year.
I’ve always been a girl in my heart and was living the role pretty much for about a year or two before I started HRT. I never had any problems except at school because I started attending as a male and when I transitioned in front of everone, people took offense. But had I never been known to be a guy, I probably would have never had a problem, period.
At work, I have no problems, period. They all know and are cool with it. Even the H.R. knows, because when I had to do a background check, the topic was unavoidable. It’s none of their business to know if I was on hormones or not, or even if I got the surgery.
And another truth about me: I have always had very tiny male genitalia and my female friends around me says that I’m pretty much unnoticable: they’ve been telling me that for years!
So, in my case, why do I have to bother with HRT? I even fooled the hormone doctor who started me off! He thought I had taken hormones previously, but no.
I’ve always been a girl but I now feel that I don’t need to try to prove it in any other way other than just being myself. Am I alone in this feeling?